It
is both great and sad to be back on Hyde Street tonight, a mix of old
faces and new outside the nightclub. The stark scarecrow of owl-eyed
Kenny, with his constant bumming of cigarettes and an ambitious
request for two dollars (to get some food, he claims). Emilio and
Katie and Grant and even the new kid, Justin the barback, who seems
like an uncanny fit for the club. All the various and varied DJs and
promoters and their friends and fans and girls and boys and everyone
so very glad to be back on one of the toughest blocks in San
Francisco.
While I'm still deciding if I'm celebrating being
back on Hyde Street after midnight on a Tuesday or not, a drunken
rapper shows up with a pronounced pink scar on his left cheek. His
slur is somewhere between pimp patois and having been sippin' on
some sizzurp for a little too long, along with, of course, some
weed. But he is lucid enough to require me to give him the "private
party tonight" line to keep him from trying to insinuate his way
into the club. He is obviously way too wasted to allow in and I can't
tell if he is cool or just another of the neighborhood's newest
cracked-out denizens.
He slurs something and I nod and smile
vaguely and mutter, "Yeah...", but I cannot understand a
word he is saying. This conversation, I'm guessing, is mutually based
on a rough reading of energy and body language. We bump knuckles a
few times as his low and mumbled monologue continues.
Apparently
his reading of me comes back positive, as he produces a CD from his
back pocket. It is a professional-looking affair: a clear plastic
sleeve with full color cover, double-sided on glossy stock. It feels
like a familiar exchange and I quickly explain that I have no money
to buy a copy of his homie's album. He explains, head still down
toward the sidewalk, with the occasional violent sideways swerve up
toward my eyes, that this isn't his homie's album, but he and his
brother's.
He suddenly swings his head up and in toward my
face, holding the CD in front of both of us. "See? Thass me,”
he says, jamming his dirty finger into one of the confidently smiling
faces on the CD cover, “and thass mah brother." He forces the
CD into my hand, then stumbles diagonally backward into the wrought
iron gate in front of the club. I get off my stool and start toward
his slumping figure, but before I can reach him, he lurches up into a
standing position and wobbles stutter-step back toward the curb. He
kicks off one of his shoes, stoops low in the middle of the dirty
sidewalk and carefully examines the papers and bills from each of his
front pockets, weaving obviously and straining to focus his eyes. The
club's smoking patrons watch quietly from against the fence and
comment in loud whispers to one another. One of them makes a grand
gesture of giving him a cigarette and a light.
After a few
drags, he sloppily throws the smoke into the gutter, takes a few
wobbling steps, then crumples face down onto the trunk of a blue
Honda parked in front of the club. Perhaps he is finally unconscious.
His pullover black hoodie hides most of his upper torso and head. I'm
sure he's still alive—I can see his back rising and falling
regularly—and at this point, that's good enough for me.
After
a few minutes of face-down deep breathing, he flops over violently
and lurches into a slumped sitting/leaning position against the
parked car, pushing back the edge of his hood with his wrist. He
focuses his eyes, and nearly indecipherable speech, on me again.
"Hey, mang, juss hol' ontuh tha' disk... Iss free... iss free."
he says, making a pushing motion with both hands. I thank him
profusely as he falls face-first onto the filthy sidewalk. As he
rolls over slowly and starts trying to get up, demanding to know who
just hit him in his face, I repeat that he still cannot come into the
club, but I'm not sure if he hears me.